When my job is good it is very very good.
When it is bad my heart breaks.
Today a former student died. He was murdered in his home.
He was 18. Just a baby.
We are all devastated.
Goodbye, Carlos. I wish I had done more and I always will.
This is onerous. I hate it.
November 14, 2007 @ 8:45 pm | Filed under Education, NaBloPoMo | Permalink |
Shigeta Said,
November 14, 2007 @ 9:41 pm
Kelly, I am so sorry.
Dave2 Said,
November 14, 2007 @ 9:51 pm
Sorry to hear you got some bad news today, though I have to thank you for giving me a little bit of needed perspective.
TW Said,
November 14, 2007 @ 9:54 pm
Oh No…I am so sorry to hear this…hang in there.
coolbeans Said,
November 14, 2007 @ 10:20 pm
How heartbreaking. You do what you can, after that it’s not in your hands.
We know this is true, but it can suck when someone says it to us. Someday you may have occasion to say it to me. Please do.
Mrs RW Said,
November 14, 2007 @ 10:25 pm
Everything I want to say sounds trite and insincere. Love is being sent your way.
Tricia Said,
November 14, 2007 @ 11:30 pm
Fuck!
Shash Said,
November 15, 2007 @ 5:56 am
Wow. I am so sorry, Kelly. My thoughts are with you and Carlos’ family today. Thank you for sharing this with us.
Shash
Gillian B Said,
November 15, 2007 @ 6:04 am
I am so sorry.
Gillian
Caffeinated Librarian Said,
November 15, 2007 @ 6:36 am
Although she hasn’t said it, I think one of the reasons that my mom reads the obituaries every day is that she’s checking to see if any of her former students are there. And too often they have been, as have former classmates of mine.
I’m sorry Carlos was killed and I’m sorry for your and your fellow teachers, your student’s, and his family’s grief. I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better, but…there just isn’t anything to say, is there? But don’t you dare start kicking yourself about the things you “should have done.” I have complete confidence that you did your best by him because I know you…and feeling guilt for things that you have no control over doesn’t help anyone.
Susan Getgood Said,
November 15, 2007 @ 6:39 am
Will be thinking of you today. Anyone who reads this blog knows how much you care about the students, and how hard this news must be for you.
tanilan Said,
November 15, 2007 @ 7:49 am
We lost a former student a couple weeks ago. He was one of those kids that was always polite, always smiling, always helpful. He graduated in 2005, but still lived here in town.
I didn’t realize how attached I have become to these kids, and they have become like my own children. And I didn’t know it would hurt me so badly, when we lost him.
I find I am still looking to see his smiling face when I go into the grocery store and get my big bear hug. His name was Jeremy; and like Carlos, he had his whole life ahead of him and he is gone way too young.
My thoughts and prayers are with your school, and Carlos’s family and friend. It is still rough around here; and I know it will be difficult in the weeks to come.
Much Love
Liza Said,
November 15, 2007 @ 8:20 am
I am so, so sorry for your loss. I can’t imagine what that must be like.
jenny Said,
November 15, 2007 @ 9:31 am
Oh, Kelly. I’m so sorry to hear about such a tragic loss.
Gwen Said,
November 15, 2007 @ 10:50 am
As a teacher and parent my body had a full on shiver at your words. I am so sorry and my prayers are with you, his family and friends.
Erin Said,
November 15, 2007 @ 10:51 am
Kelly, I am truly sorry to here about this. It is always tragic to lose someone so young. My thoughts are with you.
dana Said,
November 15, 2007 @ 12:00 pm
I’m so terribly sorry to hear about your student. It’s devastating when a life is taken prematurely. I never can understand things like this. No matter how hard I try.
-hugs to you-
Dana
Lovebabz Said,
November 15, 2007 @ 12:25 pm
I hold you and young Carlos and his family in prayer.
Jessica Said,
November 15, 2007 @ 12:52 pm
Kelly, that is heartbreaking for everyone. I’m so sorry.
Sarah Said,
November 15, 2007 @ 1:28 pm
How sad. Try to think about all the kids you help. I bet you save lives every day and you don’t even know it.
Daisy Said,
November 15, 2007 @ 3:32 pm
Oh. My.
Hugs to you…how sad. This hurts caring people hardest of all, and you are a very, very caring person.
Take care. Of yourself. Really.
Tiggerlane Said,
November 15, 2007 @ 3:43 pm
Sending big, fat hugs your way, Kelly. I know you feel like each one of those students, in a special way, is your own.
Hoping you are able to make it thru the next few days with some measure of peace.
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