Fall comes around and I’m useless to you. I don’t get into real or imagined football. Television doesn’t show any promise until I’ve determined which nights I’ll be watching it. Basically, I have no ties to pop culture. What I do, in a nutshell, is hole up in my own head and try diligently to find rest once the school year has officially sunk its teeth into me and I’m not allowed me to visit the many blogs I’ve come to know and read and love.
For the season, I am absurdly busy and tied up in the busy life of a mother and a career woman and being a rather shitty friend. Just thinking about all I have yet to do makes me tired and I’m looking to remedy this by eating better, drinking more water, and nourishing my soul the way I know I can and should.
Last week I went to get my teeth cleaned. My sons came with me as we always schedule this together so as the two of them waited I got called in first. I had hoped to go visit them in the dentist’s chair and sternly look over the doctor’s shoulder while smugly raising my eyebrows which translates to See, I Told You To Floss! For some reason, it was a quick trip for me and I was done in a matter of 15 minutes. The dental assistant told me that it’d be a while before the dentist would get to me.
“No problem. It’s quiet in here and I could use a moment to quiet myself.”
She didn’t say another word, just pushed the right buttons to move my chair into a reclining position, turn off the lights, and she left me alone. I fell asleep in a matter of moments and she instructed the dentist to check my teeth out last and to leave me alone. Basically, she let me sleep for 25 minutes and woke me gently, smiling at me like a mother would when knowing her child needed that rest.
Sunday afternoon I found myself on my mother’s couch (she’s quite the cheap therapist and sleep retreat for me) reading the current issue of JPG Magazine and found a quote that punched me right in the gut (page 19):
I sense myself falling, plummeting into the uncertain. Reaching around, I panic in search of something to pull me back up. I find your face, diving alongside, and remember why I jumped in the first place.
Primarily, I need some things. To feed my soul, to protect my heart, and to rest, rest, rest. I’ll jump back into blogging when that’s somewhat under control.
See you then?
September 7, 2008 @ 9:08 pm | Filed under Lessons I'm Learning | Permalink |
Rachel Said,
September 7, 2008 @ 9:13 pm
Ok, fine. But, you better keep twittering! You are a crack up!
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CharmingDriver Said,
September 7, 2008 @ 9:14 pm
But but but but what about me? What about MY needs? Did you even consider how this will effect ME?!! No, no you did not. Apology accepted. Now get back to blogging, missy.
Seriously though: I hope you find what it is you need & want & get the rest you deserve.
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sizzle Said,
September 7, 2008 @ 9:17 pm
Smart thinking. You’ll be missed but I fully support the break.
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flutter Said,
September 7, 2008 @ 9:22 pm
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JenniferB Said,
September 7, 2008 @ 9:25 pm
Deal — take care of yourself first!
Redneck Mommy Said,
September 7, 2008 @ 9:25 pm
Take the time darlin.
In the mean time know that I”ll be stalking you via email and keeping tabs on how your grocery shopping is going.
Find your joy love. I’m thinking of you.
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Lovebabz Said,
September 7, 2008 @ 9:58 pm
Yes, You need some restoration time. I have done it. I have done it while pressed up against the world to the point of not being able to breathe. I am learning to listen for the ebb and flow. To sit and be quiet, to turn off the computer. Step into the land of other living…away from the virtual world.
Yep, I’ll miss you, but your happiness trumps my selfishness!
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Half Assed Kitchen Said,
September 7, 2008 @ 10:17 pm
We’ll be here!
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Dave2 Said,
September 7, 2008 @ 11:33 pm
You’re leaving me… but we can still be friends, right?
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BOSSY Said,
September 8, 2008 @ 2:59 am
Sweet post, like a lullaby. Now tell Bossy about your Heart and the Category 5 stuff!
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Stacy Said,
September 8, 2008 @ 4:03 am
Now don’t be gone too long, like last time.
My favorite place to retreat when I was exhausted was to my grandmothers. She had the. most. comfortable. couch that would just suck you in and make you take a nap.
Thanks for the memory this morning.
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ML Said,
September 8, 2008 @ 4:47 am
Take your time. I’ll just do these dishes and clean up a bit…
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Avitable Said,
September 8, 2008 @ 5:34 am
Last time I fell asleep in a dentist’s chair, I woke up with my pants off and a sore ass. You have to be careful about those things.
Caffeinated Librarian Said,
September 8, 2008 @ 5:38 am
Always, babe. You know where to find me.
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Mrs. G. Said,
September 8, 2008 @ 7:10 am
See you then!
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Pam Said,
September 8, 2008 @ 7:22 am
I truly understand Kelly. Not only are you managing a family but most would have no clue about the intensity of your work life. There has got to be restorative time in there somewhere.
Get some rest. The internet will always be here.
Hugs!
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Kristin Said,
September 8, 2008 @ 9:09 am
I just “returned” from a wee blog break… take the time, we’ll all be here.
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gorillabuns Said,
September 8, 2008 @ 9:11 am
Life does seem to get in the way of blogging. Sometimes in the most beautiful way.
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Angie Said,
September 8, 2008 @ 9:23 am
Bye for now! Enjoy the respite.
Angella Said,
September 8, 2008 @ 12:48 pm
Take care of yourself, friend. We’ll be here when you need us.
Daisy Said,
September 8, 2008 @ 2:27 pm
Take care, my friend. I’ll cheer on the football enough for two. Or three.
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BETSY Said,
September 8, 2008 @ 5:03 pm
The well must be full before it can replenish others.
Take a break. Take care of yourself.
Take a nap.
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Lara Said,
September 8, 2008 @ 6:02 pm
see you then, sexy lady!
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Cynthia Samuels Said,
September 8, 2008 @ 8:11 pm
Oh sweetie. We will miss you. I may harass you some by email - don’t know if I can do w/out you altogether. I hope this break brings you what you need - a kind of metaphorical dentist chair, as it were. How many kids have a dean whose soul is so totally invested in their education? I guess that means it’s ok that we have to sacrifice the pleasure of your posts for a bit.
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Elisa Said,
September 9, 2008 @ 4:57 am
That is such a fantastic quote!
Hey, life, takes precedence. We’ll be here when you get back.
Renée aka Mekhismom Said,
September 9, 2008 @ 8:44 am
I am glad to hear that you are taking a moment to get the rest that you so obviously need. Your job is taxing and taking a break is completely understandable. WE will be here when you return!
Sugar Said,
September 10, 2008 @ 1:35 pm
Well, good to know we get little doses of you throughout the week on the tweets. Have a nice nap… see you then!
Siobhan Said,
September 10, 2008 @ 3:22 pm
Totally understandable.
I gave you an award, if you’re interested :o)
Jakki Said,
September 10, 2008 @ 4:11 pm
oh how I know how you feel.
Amanda Said,
September 10, 2008 @ 4:41 pm
So it’s not just me?! I’m not sure why, but the beginning of this school year just seems to be more hectic than ever.
Rest, relax and join us again when you can. ~
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Okay, so that’s the best I can do at making a mug of mocha.
Linda Said,
September 12, 2008 @ 2:06 am
In the fall, my husband says see you in the spring. I don’t think it’s really that bad!
Ms. Bar B Said,
September 12, 2008 @ 11:42 am
Everyone needs a little rest and relaxation at some point… even superwomen!!! Enjoy.
Elizabeth Said,
September 13, 2008 @ 7:40 am
“I sense myself falling, plummeting into the uncertain. Reaching around, I panic in search of something to pull me back up. I find your face, diving alongside, and remember why I jumped in the first place.”
Gorgeous.
tracey Said,
September 15, 2008 @ 11:42 am
y’all come back now, ya hear? recharge those batteries and your soul. You need, and DESERVE it. Don’t let any one try to tell you any different. Relax. BREATHE. Enjoy…
Tracey
Fiona Said,
September 15, 2008 @ 12:15 pm
Glad to hear you’re taking time for you. Remember to breathe, enjoy the changing of the seasons, and notice the little things while life is swirling around you.
We’ll be here!
Tricia Said,
September 15, 2008 @ 1:18 pm
Fall- always brings the melancholy for me, a bit of the blues until the weather settles. I recognize that you have more on your plate than just the fall.
Take care- find the peace!
Susan Said,
September 16, 2008 @ 11:25 am
I could have sworn I commented on this already. Sorry. Anyway, it seems like all my favorite bloggers are going on hiatus and/or going private. What am I going to do when I am at work?! Seriously. I’ll miss reading your posts but I totally understand. I sort of take little vacays from my pitiful blog too. Not intentionally. But still. Take care of yourself and hope to see you writing full time again soon. (((HUGS)))