I’ve just not been able to write as openly over the last two years and for that I’m sad. Not that I haven’t written at all, because I have. But I haven’t been able to share it in an open forum like this here humble little blog. But you know how it is. You start to write some things and share some personal stuff and people respond and say things like, “Thank you for writing that and being honest and saying what I haven’t been able to say” or sometimes they say, “Well, that was a load of shite” because they’re all British and shite and spell shit with an extra “e” and then you wonder how it is that people in England are reading you and then you go, “Holy crackerjack, Batman! I’m the shite because of the foreign readers on my blog!” and then, of course, you stop that crazy thought because you know that shit is spelled without an extra “e”. Am I righte?
In any case, I have to say a thousand thanks to my readers. Because you have understood and silently encouraged and written lovely emails meant to cheer me up for dealing with a broken marriage and a newfound previously-placed-for-adoption daughter and two new promotions at work that made blogging super difficult and moving into a new house and losing my grandmother and still trying VERY hard to be positive and honest in this writing space. I’ve not always wanted this to be the journal that it’s slowly becoming but I’ve learned that I don’t want to be in that club of greedy bloggers and wannabes and drama queens.
All that was to say thank you for understanding when I can’t write it all down. When I have to keep personal things personal and not puke out feelings that I have to sort through here. Thank you for sticking around and making me still love this place. A place where I can’t do certain things. All the things I cannot say. All the words that won’t come out right and will be misunderstood or used against me. All the general bullshit about how hard my job is to write about except in a generic sense to protect the people I work with and the students I service and the families I come in contact with.
Really. I mean it. Thank you.
June 13, 2009 @ 5:43 pm | Filed under Brain Swamp, Lessons I'm Learning, Make An Inference!, Run-On Sentences, Secretive In A Secrety Secret Way, Words Of Wisdom | Permalink | Comments (30)
CatrinkaS Said,
June 13, 2009 @ 5:56 pm
You were the first blog I visited regularly, and the first blog I ever commented on. You inspire me with your measured reveals and your carefully edited-without-being-censored insights. Keep doing what you do. Love.
Busy Mom Said,
June 13, 2009 @ 6:49 pm
Keep up the good work on all fronts. We’re here.
Amelia Sprout Said,
June 13, 2009 @ 7:12 pm
I’ve wanted to email you, but I haven’t. I often worry about if you are OK. You were one of the first people besides family to comment on my blog, and I will be loyal to you as long as you’re writing. Even if it is occasionally. Also, I expect you to tell me where to get a damn Chicago dog when I’m there in July, because when I visited last fall, we never found out where we could get one (that didn’t require a car).
Lori E Said,
June 13, 2009 @ 7:16 pm
Well I really don’t know you at all having just found you yesterday but I think I am a good judge of character and will continue to see what kind of shite, shit or sharts come out of you. Was that a run on sentence?
Jhotvedt Said,
June 13, 2009 @ 7:44 pm
I love your writing, in 140 characters, and unlimited. You are defo the shite, and may you never ask a Brit if they like your fanny pack. Bless.xx
Amanda Said,
June 13, 2009 @ 8:06 pm
I love reading when you post…have for almost a year now. You do what you can and hopefully most of us get that.
…with categories such as Make an Inference! and Run-on Sentences. Ick, I can’t get away from the stuff. But honestly, it did make me laugh…only 9 more days to summer break (I’m ready to start counting, I need some sleep and better health). Hope the rest of your school year is a good one/was good one (no idea when you are done).
On another note…you are such an educator
SBarnacle Said,
June 13, 2009 @ 9:03 pm
Ah, you’re one of my heros! Keeping things real and sassy all at the same time. You just do what’s best for you. We’ll be out here cheering for you.
JenniferB Said,
June 13, 2009 @ 10:46 pm
I think you’re pretty fabulous. Keep doing what you need to do and I’m going to keep checking in and laughing or crying or just reading.
You rock.
Johann Said,
June 14, 2009 @ 8:14 am
Keep doing the same thing you’re doing. Your words here and on the Twitters are humorous, entertaining, even inspiring.
We should be thanking YOU. I know I do.
You DO indeed rock.
Avitable Said,
June 14, 2009 @ 8:31 am
Thank YOU for being awesome and still posting whatever tidbits you can.
Latte Lady Said,
June 14, 2009 @ 8:42 am
I need to confess. I am a lurker. I have read your blog for years and not left comments. I enjoy your wit and admire your accomplishments in life. Please keep up the good work. I like reading all the shite you blog about.
LL
Sra Said,
June 14, 2009 @ 10:53 am
Yours is some of the better writing of all the blogs I read. So thank YOU!
Assertagirl Said,
June 14, 2009 @ 4:27 pm
Aw, Kelly, you ARE the shite. Can’t wait to see you.
TW Said,
June 14, 2009 @ 6:15 pm
Eh, you know I have a practically abandoned blog because I can’t write the details of my life sometimes, most of the time actually. So, I get that so well. It rots, but I get it.
Hang in there Kelly. You are loved…whether you get to talk about what you want to talk about or don’t talk at all.
MD Said,
June 15, 2009 @ 8:07 am
I’m a longtime lurker, and am delurking to let you know how much I look forward to your posts, even when you can’t say what you’d like to say. I too have had a rough couple of years with a marriage hitting the skids and other personal challenges, and it’s just nice to know that I’m not alone. And that like you, I will make it through this shite. Thank you.
Amanda Said,
June 15, 2009 @ 9:33 am
You post when you can about what you can beautifully. Who could ask for more?
jess Said,
June 15, 2009 @ 9:46 am
no, thank-you kelly.
Emily Said,
June 15, 2009 @ 4:10 pm
I’ve only discovered your blog in the past few months and I love what I’ve found. Please keep writing in whatever form works best for you – I’ll def keep reading!
Meg Evans Said,
June 15, 2009 @ 7:10 pm
Ditto Amanda. Keep writing. I’ll be here.
The Coffee Lady Said,
June 15, 2009 @ 11:32 pm
Just to confirm, from an Englishwoman, there’s no e in shit.
But there is one in shite. Which is hard to say without inadvertently adopting a bad Irish accent.
editdebs Said,
June 16, 2009 @ 5:52 am
Thank you for what you do write. I love your blog, and I so appreciate knowing that our schools have people like you in them. You make a big difference in the lives of young people, and you make a difference to those of us who read your blog. Whatever you choose to write, I’ll be reading it and examining my own life because of it.
Heather of the EO Said,
June 19, 2009 @ 5:20 am
OK fine. I’ll delurk too.
I find it refreshing when someone is simply themselves…to be themselves. That’s what you do with this space, and that’s good.
Some people stretch the dramatics to be dramatic and keep people’s attention, and that’s too bad. But others share all kinds of personal struggles and seem dramatic when that’s just who they are.
Either way, I only stick around when someone is genuine. And that you are. Thank YOU.
whall Said,
June 20, 2009 @ 8:44 am
You assume too much. I don’t understand it at all! Open up why doncha!!!!???!?!
(heh, just kidding)
Sugar Jones Said,
June 20, 2009 @ 1:55 pm
Can I just tell you that I love you? You’ve been one of my blogging heroes for so long. I’m amazed by you always… regardless of what level of sharing goes on. We all have our pieces of life that are more precious and guarded. And that’s not a bunch of shite.
It’s good.
White Hot Magik Said,
June 20, 2009 @ 3:32 pm
I took a long blogging break but have missed you. Although I love your status updates on FB. You are a beautiful soul lady and I am sorry for your losses and have thought you handled all of the challenges with grace…thanks for sharing what you can….
Staci Said,
June 20, 2009 @ 8:43 pm
You are not alone. And your blog still rocks — thanks for sharing all that you can.
Lara Said,
June 21, 2009 @ 4:50 pm
not sure if you remember this or not, but you were one of my “big four,” the four bloggers i started reading who inspired me to do my own blog thing way back in the day. and one of the four bloggers i emailed directly when i wrote about my depression and my breakdown and my hospitalization. and you came and supported me even though you probably had no idea who i was, just because i asked you to and admitted that i needed support from women i admired but had never met. and when we did meet, in socal, and then when we re-met, at blogher in SF, it was wonderful, and i loved you even more than i did before.
you are great, and i will always do anything i can to support and encourage you, if ever i can.
Ben @ Big Piece of Chicken Said,
June 25, 2009 @ 5:03 am
Have you ever retracted anything you’ve written?
Mocha Said,
June 27, 2009 @ 5:33 pm
Hi Ben. Umm no. I haven’t retracted (or redacted) but I have taken posts down to protect those who were mentioned in them at a later time. So, then, yeah. I guess I have. But my thoughts and feelings – they are what they are and I don’t have sorrow for them.
Is that what you meant?
Laura Said,
July 12, 2009 @ 1:10 pm
Sometimes the best comment to leave is just a simple *hug*